Dear Heavenly Father

I had a question for my Heavenly Father.

For the children who have been so loved and lost, but chosen to be with such great favor to hear that unmistakable voice in their hearts.

To the one who is set apart from the world and seeking for answers,

Well I don’t know the answer you are searching for  but I have great knowledge that most people can find exactly what they want to see.   Or move on till its found to be acceptable to them.

I am not an exception to this.

It all comes down to a choice

The hard cold truth .

The comfortable middle.

The bliss of total dismissal of the whole subject.

Can my way of belief be totally changed ?

No.   I take it to be a personal and private decision to make on my own place in life.

Faith is not free of worry  .     Doubt that brings guilt for going against the world and even against the ones who have raised you, is not easy. .

It’s okay to be with questions ab  religious beliefs and traditions.

But you have been gathered to me and set apart for a reason . I hope I can comfort you and you can draw courage to continue to sow seeds and preserve the words hidden in your own heart.




There is nothing new that is not foretold by the prophets of the ‘books of remembrance ‘

Books that people have held sacred throughout the centuries,

temples are built around them .

Vaults are constructed underground to hide them.

People gather together to hear what the books say.

The teachers recite the words like they truly have the unknown answers the people seek.

Such a mystery revealed to me.

These books we all hold in our own hands.

Just as you read the words I write to you this very moment .

From the beginning to the end. It speaks as it is written .

Just as I speak to you ..

So does the writings in the books of remembrance .

Habakkuk 1:2-4
(2) O LORD, how long shall I cry, and thou wilt not hear! even cry out unto thee of violence, and thou wilt not save!

(3) Why dost thou shew me iniquity, and cause me to behold grievance? for spoiling and violence are before me: and there are that raise up strife and contention.

(4) Therefore the law is slacked, and judgment doth never go forth: for the wicked doth compass about the righteous; therefore wrong judgment proceedeth.

King James Version

The anguish in his voice is palpable. “God, I’ve been crying out to You day and night, and still violence, perversity, and all these terrible things are happening in the land. How long will this evil last? How much longer must we endure this constant wickedness, this corruption? When are you going to act, God?” We have probably prayed similar prayers ourselves: “We need You, God. How long, O Lord?”

Ezekiel was a slightly later contemporary of Habakkuk.

In Ezekiel 9:1-6 is a prophecy, a vision, that he saw while a captive in Babylon. The vision describes what God was doing in Judah and answers, at least in part, Habakkuk’s question: “Why have You not judged all this evil, God?”

His reply in

Ezekiel 9 is, “I am going through the land, through My chosen people, and I am marking each one who sighs and cries over what is happening.

I am searching out and seeing who is righteous, who has character, and whom I must destroy.”

by author… Richard T. Ritenbaugh from the Berean daily verse..

I urge you to consider the book in your own hands and let God lead you .

This is the mystery.

Many will look and few will see.


The books of remembrance .

September 22, 2019.

Dear Heavenly Father ,

Guide my right hand and let only truth be found.

I am here not knowing what is it that i can truly do.?

Trusting my God , My Heavenly Fathers love ..

What man can understand these things i pray?

I see the world bow down . Idolatry is all I see.

So I search for blind faith.

Two come and knock upon my door.

Father some i send away. With kindness and encouraging them to continue the work anyway.

To few i have spoken to .. i declare their way is not as mine..

Their way is not wrong and my way is not right for all.

So I declare that my God one and thats our common goal .

They speak of the trinity and I do not debate . But I declare, that in my heart , i can not say i understand,,

So i say that I have to doubt the teachings of men.

And in the end we can only agree.. i declare my love and where i stand.

There is nothing equal to or above my God.. my very soul is the life breathed in my lungs.. in every tree and blade of grass .. i see the works of my Gods hand.

I hear vanity as some speak on the Cruelty of mankind .

How can God allow such suffering. The children sodomized and sold as slaves..

How can many see this happening and look the other way?

What will mankind answer for the children they refused to save?

How can mankind say God is to blame?

Justice of a rich man his prison is his home.

Gods children are no longer scattered and in the promised land they sew this seed.

God prepared for every child . As mankind is blinded by greed.

We are gathering . God bless the land of the free..

I continue on….             I follow myself… I follow the links

Children’s Aid Society

Google search and understand the historical beginning of the business of marketing children in America.

Anyone who cares to see something say something should be made aware of the facts and foundations of this unGodly Cruelty of mankind upon children.

We are gathering and we will never forget.

I will never be silenced. My voice will be heard from beyond my lifetime. Long after my name is forgotten my spirit lives within the books and the life within the written words .

As the churches fall…. — my Heavenly Father’s love — my Heavenly Father’s love

Following the links to various other books of rememberance from my sites.

I am Gods child . By the will of God and God alone these books be found worthy and true

Unmovable and unchangeable.

The spirit of fear comes to steal the words of my heart. Testing my faith.

I am weak . I call upon God as I battle with the invisible enemy.

Blasphemous? Delusional?

How special I must surely be.

This is the promise of the seed.

Books of remembrance

Thus saith the LORD; As the shepherd taketh out of the mouth of the lion two legs, or a piece of an ear; so shall the children of Israel be taken out that dwell in Samaria in the corner of a bed, and in Damascus in a couch

This is in the book of Amos. For those who search, may our Heavenly Father let us see.

Understanding comes from behind me. I do not know what you seek.

Nor do I know what I, myself, will write within my works.

I do have fear of offending God.

This is not a fear that I can explain other than comparing it to childlike awe of a respected parent.

I do have comfort to offer you, and those who are gathered to hear the truth in my own heart.

I set myself to be found apart from the world.

I have a personal relationship with God, He is my Heavenly Father, and I have no other besides him.

Am I a righteous and perfect woman?

No .

I am not unrealistic to ignore my own fleshly desires of lust and indulgence to things causing drunkenness of my mind.

I ask for guidance and to declare my intentions are not evil to be found as immoral and unGodly.

So I continue on…

I wrote this post some time ago..

Today I follow through .

To honor God with all my heart and soul . To show all that I have been given within the simplicity of the written word.

How special we must surely be.

I understand this gift is to come to all God chooses to see.

This is the living word of God.. such a mystery…

Let only truth be written by my hand .. let those who understand, understand ..