First blog post

I had a question for my Heavenly Father.

For the children who have been so loved and lost, but chosen to be with such great favor to hear that unmistakable voice in their hearts.

To the one who is set apart from the world and seeking for answers,

Well I don’t know the answer you are searching for  but I have great knowledge that most people can find exactly what they want to see.   Or move on till its found to be acceptable to them.

I am not an exception to this.

It all comes down to a choice

The hard cold truth .

The comfortable middle.

The bliss of total dismissal of the whole subject.

Can my way of belief be totally changed ?

No.   I take it to be a personal and private decision to make on my own place in life.

Faith is not free of worry  .     Doubt that brings guilt for going against the world and even against the ones who have raised you, is not easy. .

It’s okay to be with questions ab  religious beliefs and traditions.

But you have been gathered to me and set apart for a reason . I hope I can comfort you and you can draw courage to continue to sow seeds and preserve the words hidden in your own heart.




Scriptures for  a surrendering soul…..

¶ The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. – Proverbs 1:7

To take the time to say that this scripture that I have shared will be used to describe how the world does not  receive any thing I say is the way, 
I do not know what to say is the way. Do you?    Many people have been so busy with teaching,    but are never taught. Especially myself.   I don’t think I can get such wisdom.      Not would I try to be a teacher.    ….. but it goes unseen.   

I go back to read my own works and most of it is unfinished.,,   but it is written by my hand,    it is by no means a great prophecy to claim that I have a mind to know such things that belong to only God.    

I have no clue  to the will of God, not do I need to be confirmed or denied by man.   I don’t seek to be applauded , not do I   put my self to be  in useless debate. I just declare that I don’t know what is truth outside my own heart,    

There is a  great honor to have love for the one who has created my life and the world  is  blinded by the veil ,    unable to know that fear and love and  be accountable for their own works.   As I will be judged by my God ,       my Heavenly Father,      to him only do I pray ,   I don’t seek to be garnished with a home or debt relief,  not do I ask for forgiveness of my sins.    ……. but I do have sins and desires of my flesh,   as I also have understanding of how to be kind and generous with what I have in abundance.    …..     I have no knowledge and understanding of your own place.    But I know what offends my God,   for he has shown me the words and it is clearly written.  
Just as you will  know what it is written for your own heart.      

I write this down with one heart in mind , but it may be for another.  This is my service and my offering to honor God for  he is God . My Heavenly Father,       for me there is no other.     

I will not   bring his being to be like my flesh.   For me there is nothing can contain his glory,     for me God is the very air I breathe.  .     There is nowhere he cannot be seen.       Not with my eyes but the life of my soul he gave to you and me. .   
I feel so unworthy ,  but I accept that seed.      The seed in these words  few will ever  read ,      

Yes I fear the  anger of offending God,

 To fail him  by fearing  to go out into the world.   

 to be a guiding light on  those who need a sign .      Such a small task.

    to never seek ,  but always find.    The one who God has chosen to be his own.      

Even though it may  be for another day.    You remember the wisdom of my words blessed by God,  the truth is that love you read within these words,      your answers  have been written by your very own hand , in your own words you will begin to understand.       Read what you have written by your own hands. 

MY Garden Full  of Love and Grace, there are no tares,   not a trace,  not one I have found…..  I return the peace and joy ,   in the seed I planted in the ground ..

So beautiful is a good seed,    even though I have pride in the works you read,….

It’s more like a wonder of the gift  that I share,    so pure and simple, not one tare,  

Something that is a great gift  not given to me,..   but to the world , …God bless this seed… 

It’s  God’s  gift for you to read,     the beauty of the seed ,     

I’m glad your here……just follow your heart…….

The story of Eve,,,,and the first lie ever told,,,,,passed down to the young from Father’s to Father’s of Father’s we have not known.   .. the beginning of the fall of man,   

The very first lie ,,,,, today it still stands.     ….  

Well I don’t know really who you are,  but I write this….    (as I continue on) on the feeling that is touching my heart.    

God does work in mysterious ways…….

I don’t have a great following ,,, it shocks me to see that I  have had  any views at all.    

But it is personal things that I have  shared.     Not really any  organization on  any particular order or subject matter. 

Just words thrown as seeds in the wind…..  

I don’t have to say that these people have it wrong,,,  , and especially my own understanding  is judged as delusional…..

I will never say that I know what it means …… 

It depends on the version of the Bible you read.    

The subject’s that is in the Holy writings of the Bible  has been changed in the past 100 years. 

I search out the old versions found at yard sales and packed up in boxes of stuff that belonged to the grand parents  ,    . Boxes that come out to be disposed of by   great grand children and distant relatives.   

Torn covers and loose pages  with pen marks of personal  notes  .  

Scriptures that speak of dragons and unicorns,,,,,,,  crocodiles and whales,,,,,

Omitted from modern versions..  

“No one notices or even bothers to compare ,,    the words that belong together and now no longer there”

Seems to be irrelevant to the world now   ,  it is stuck like a record and repeats itself over and over again until now ,    the focus is on the new.. ,,    but I search out the old… 

The story of Eve……  and the first lie ever told,,,,,,,,  even to this very day ,    it is told from generation to generation,,,, and  the whole world is deceived.  …….   surely you shall not die,,,,,,  

And I know that there is no one else but you ,    ,,,   that is still here with me,,,      so I continue on  ,,, and it began with Adam and Eve 

The words of my heart

Will you come to my unmovable faith in the purest form of love?
Will you see the words that belong to God,  ?   They are hidden in my heart. 

 My flesh is weary and my  gifts for my God is  in his hands. 

To have the word untainted by the way of man  , do not be hasty to dismiss

To read the word and feel the fear is understanding and trust.

Wisdom is impossible to find, but it is knowledge and understanding  the children will provide. 

To be able to say “God, I am here”

And acknowledge  his laws with  fear . 

To stand up and appoint ourselves as teachers of  the word,  gaining followers  for the things that are   true to one  and to another  is absurd.

There is no fear of  God to be found in the words that  are so  formal and sound.  

To stand up and say the new fulfills the old ,   refusing to believe that we do not know   its  God  that created your soul.  
To see the words of the prophets of old,  is  to be obedient to do as your told.  Yes you are the same as the ones that have  set up the idols of wood and stone.     Only to the deaf and blind can say that that  is unknown. 

Nothing is new that was not old,   

Yesterday, today and tomorrow is shown ,   
All this knowledge belongs to God, and God alone.   

So I searched for understanding from the creator of it all.  

You are right here with me,   listening to the call,        there is only one God,  the creator  of us all. 

To me there is no equal,   I seek not right or left.      ,  fools  stand and say  there is   only one way ,      follow me to the grave ,   of the sins that have been  took away,   …….     so now we have a choice to make,    

The wrath of God,  in an     overflowing     cup ,    set before one  who filled it up…. with the offending sins  of  all   mankind,    ,     the cries for mercy  ,   the jealous Creator , the Heavenly Father in anger denied,  …

No mercy on the sin ,   that  is  still  leading men ,  to the grave where it was lain ,      blind and deaf ,   this to me is vain.  ……

To stand on understanding,   no man can claim ,    

In my heart these words remain


You are right and I am wrong……

Yet I still continue on……..

I love my God,  in my own special way

I’m doing it so wrong , so many people say. 

I ask for guidance from my Heavenly Father to serve and full fill his way.

I am not a prisoner,     it’s my own free will

I listen with my heart and I remain still. 
I love my God, I always will. 

I may not know what you  all claim is known 

But it is not easy to find simplicity in the  Jesus that I have  sought  and been shown. 

And the rest of the world chooses not to see,    

the words I sew as a seed ,  

 So the children of God,,,,    will surely feed,   

The evil one comes along with me and sews his own tares ,   

he sees the seed and sets his snare,   

He sews the fear ,   he seeks to scare,    

Even I have fled from the unseen in shame , 

I do not want to offend my God, , when I serve to honor his name,  

He searches my heart and his mercy on me is   found

 I continue on ,  in your heart these seeds are  bound,

 And I will continue on………..

Check out this  .   Bet you don’t think it relevant

 1 Lest the casting off of the Jews should be limited according to the outward appearance, 4 he showeth that Elijah was in times past decieved: 16 and that, seeing they have an holy root, 23 many of them likewise shall be holy. 18, 24 He exhorteth the Gentiles to be humble, 33 and crieth out, that God’s judgments are unsearchable.1 I Demand then, Hath God cast away his people? God forbid: for I also am an Israelite, of the seed of Abraham, of the tribe of Benjamin. God hath not cast away his people which he knew before. Know ye not what the Scripture saith of Elijah, how he communeth with God against Israel, saying, Let their eyes be darkened that they see not, and bow down their back always. I demand then, Have they stumbled, that they should fall? God forbid: but through their fall, salvation cometh unto the Gentiles, to provoke them to follow them. Wherefore if the fall of them be the riches of the world, and the diminishing of them the riches of the Gentiles, how much more shall their abundance be? To try if by any means I might provoke them of my flesh to follow them, and might save some of them. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the world, what shall the receiving be, but life from the dead? For if the firstfruits be holy, so is the whole lump: and if the root be holy, so are the branches. And though some of the branches be broken off, and thou being a wild Olive tree, wast grafted in for them, and made partaker of the root and fatness of the Olive tree: Boast not thyself against the branches: and if thou boast thyself, thou bearest not the root, but the root thee. Thou wilt say then, The branches are broken off, that I might be grafted in. Well: through unbelief they are broken off, and thou standest by faith: be not high-minded, but fear. For if God spared not the natural branches, take heed, lest he also spare not thee. Behold therefore the bountifulness, and severity of God: toward them which have fallen, severity: but toward thee, bountifulness, if thou continue in his bountifulness: or else thou shalt also be cut off. And they also, if they abide not still in unbelief, shall be grafted in: for God is able to graft them in again. For if thou wast cut out of the Olive tree, which was wild by nature, and was grafted contrary to nature in a right Olive tree, how much more shall they that are by nature, be grafted in their own Olive tree? For I would not, brethren, that ye should be ignorant of this secret (lest ye should be arrogant in yourselves) that partly obstinacy is come to Israel, until the fullness of the Gentiles be come in. And so all Israel shall be saved, as it is written, The deliverer shall come out of Zion, and shall turn away the ungodliness from Jacob. And this is my covenant to them, When I shall take away their sins. As concerning the Gospel, they are enemies for your sakes: but as touching the election, they are beloved for the fathers’ sakes. For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance. For even as ye in times past have not believed God, yet have now obtained mercy through their unbelief: Even so now have they not believed by the mercy showed unto you, that they also may obtain mercy. For God hath shut up all in unbelief, that he might have mercy on all. O the deepness of the riches, both of the wisdom, and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of the Lord? or who was his counselor? Or who hath given unto him first, and he shall be recompensed? For of him, and through him, and for him are all things: to him be glory forever. Amen. – Romans 11:1-2,10-12,14-36,10-12,14-36&version=GNV

I recommend reading the whole chapter .  

I take everything so personally. 
I consider myself to be the same as those who are spoken of .   Who can say that knowledge belongs to anyone but God? 
With this I have great wisdom of truth in my heart and my faith is unchanged by my incapability to declare my own interpretation with pride. 

I just love my Heavenly Father. He is my God.  I am his child.  No matter how much I may be judged by man as delusional about my own testimony and declare that there is nothing equal to or greater than the one who created me. 


In the morning , and into the night,   I continue on ,  into the fight……

But in between the planting of the seed ,  

I rest and sleep ,  

Then my Heavenly Father opens my eyes,  

The enemy cones to whisper doubt and lies.  

Yet I don’t understand what is the mind of God,  I’m not going to say that I  am not afraid,    but I continue to fight with these words ,  in these words   it’s the way I pray.  

I will not be  perfect ,  to the enemy I am prey,  he  hides behind me,   as , My Heavenly Father leads my way    , , 

The enemy waits for me to stray,     dear Heavenly Father    I will not fall,     my ears are open to follow your call, 

I feel the evil one behind me , I can not see,  

I  know that my Shepard  is God leading me,     I am not alone,    the enemy will lie to me.  

He crawls like serpents  under my bed he declared that he wants me dead.   I run in circles and   scream for my God,   yet in faith I continue on,  ,  to make it clear that in this song,    I will  serve the Heavenly Father   until the day I’m gone.   I’m am weak, my Heavenly Father is strong.  
The battle is real,      I continue on. ….. 

And as I  finish  the evil one goes on. 

My song is sung   .    I continue on  

Dear Heavenly Father

Why waste my words to describe how much I love you to the world  ?   Dear Heavenly Father, you have blessed my life. 
Ever step I took, you are with me,  

No matter what day it is 

  I give you my love    . I search to  serve you and  I see the world is blind , 

I speak to those who can not hear  

Dear Heavenly Father,    my mind is clear. 

No wine nor drug has  stopped  my heart  . 

So many have fallen by my side.   But blessed by your mercy  I survive. 

 To be able to see the  beauty of the world  , , to feel your presence is alive  . 

You are my God ,   I love only thee,  

I refuse to  pray  unto a tree,  the symbol of a man,    so many will never see.  But yet they call him God.. 
In my life the devil  fights with me. He scares me to fear my life.     

How offended you must be  ; dear Heavenly Father , still you save me,   

To speak of Jesus and the tree,  oh how the world hates and rejects me  
But as I fight with the devil , Satan to some, ,,,, the invisible serpent is how he  comes to me ,,,,,   when I speak of Jesus and  can’t  understand why people don’t  hear,   they are taught to be moral and they have no fear.   

They have a great need and are without doubt that they will be risen from the grave,   the one who died so they can be saved.  

But I have found not one who can truly say they don’t know   , they can only say   ,   accept Jesus Christ and that’s the only way..    .

They pray to you and give him the  thanks .

Exactly the opposite of what is written long ago and still to this day,     in big red letters  he declared that there is no other way, 

Heavenly Father  ,    it’s written plain and simple and so many will never see , the child that is set in the midst of  thee.

But yet still I don’t know all things,  but only to you ,dear Heavenly Father, my heart   will always search,  and in my heart Is where your found,      and to me that is the only way.    When I declare this true in my heart,   there is no more to battle , from me the evil one departs,      

To rise again, when I start to sew , the love of God, that’s what I know.  


First commandment is everything to me. ……

 Thou shalt have none other gods before my face. Thou shalt make thee no graven image or any likeness of that that is in heaven above, or which is in the earth beneath, or that is in the waters under the earth. Thou shalt neither bow thyself unto them, nor serve them: for I the Lord thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, even unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me: And showing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments. Thou shalt not take the Name of the Lord thy God in vain: for the Lord will not hold him guiltless that taketh his Name in vain. – Deuteronomy 5:7-11

For my Holly,   for my work be in vanity if I think myself wise…….

 1 A vision. 5 Against pride, covetousness, drunkenness, and idolatry.1 I will stand upon my watch, and set me upon the tower, and will look and see what he would say unto me, and what I shall answer to him that rebuketh me. And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the last it shall speak and not lie: though it tarry, wait: for it shall surely come, and shall not stay. Behold, he that lifteth up himself, his mind is not upright in him, but the just shall live by his faith, Yea, indeed the proud man is as he that transgresseth by wine: therefore shall he not endure, because he hath enlarged his desire as the hell, and is as death, and cannot be satisfied, but gathereth unto him all nations, and heapeth unto him all people. Shall not all these take up a parable against him, and a taunting proverb against him, and say, Ho, he that increaseth that which is not his? how long? and he that ladeth himself with thick clay? Shall they not rise up suddenly, that shall bite thee? and awake, that shall stir thee? and thou shalt be their prey? Because thou hast spoiled many nations, all the remnant of the people shall spoil thee, because of men’s blood, and for the wrong done in the land, in the city, and unto all that dwell therein. Ho, he that coveteth an evil covetousness to his house, that he may set his nest on high, to escape from the power of evil. Thou hast consulted shame to thine own house, by destroying many people, and hast sinned against thine own soul. For the stone shall cry out of the wall, and the beam out of the timber shall answer it. Woe unto him that buildeth a town with blood, and erecteth a city by iniquity. Behold, is it not of the Lord of hosts, that the people shall labor in the very fire? the people shall even weary themselves for very vanity. For the earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea. Woe unto him that giveth his neighbor drink: thou joinest thine heat, and makest him drunken also, that thou mayest see their privities. Thou art filled with shame for glory: drink thou also, and be made naked: the cup of the Lord’s right hand shall be turned unto thee, and shameful spewing shall be for thy glory. For the cruelty of Lebanon shall cover thee: so shall the spoil of the beasts, which made them afraid, because of men’s blood, and for the wrong done in the land, in the city, and unto all that dwell therein. – Habakkuk 2:1-17

Not to add to the words the scribes preserved for my own sake . 

But to trust God in my heart concerning you.  For my work would be dead without my faith.   This is not a sermon to bring me some grace or salvation,  this can not be as an escape from my own place in judgement. 
I can not escape the fate of my wine,…( my drug) that I hold in my left hand. ,   that is why I call upon God,, to bless my right hand and see not my left.  
The enemy brings me fear of offending God with my own drunkenness  , though I be of sound mind to serve God with these works. I choose to do it in any state of mind and weaknesses of my flesh will not change my heart.  So I be judged accordingly..
Do not be deceived by host, for this is a confusion to me   ,   the way it is written,   the Lord thy God,   and then the lord of hosts ,  

 such a blasphemous testimony to declare that there is knowledge in me to declare that there is a difference between the two  , the Lord thy God,   and the Lord of hosts,   that the prophets of old have declared to me and written of.. .  
Such a fear of offending God to lead you to battle with the truth in your heart.  
For I have no answers.  But I don’t question the sovereign presence in my heart.  

The serpent spirit that tortures my mind crawls beneath me and my Heavenly Father’s mercy is upon me.   As unworthy as I feel to have such a good and great God.  

But I endure it with foolishness to think I can run away from the invisible serpent spirit that is the enemy.  Especially when I  choose to come to you and declare this warning.  
Be of a sober mind.  And carry on to be without deceit or vanity. The Lord thy God,  your Heavenly Father will guide you.