The first chapter of proverbs  is my favorite starting point.  

These things I share with you are personal and simple.   

Do I understand what is not understood? No. So I don’t try to..   

Fear of offending God is in my heart. 

Fear of God is beginning of knowledge. No matter how man will make it complicated. 

It is so simple remain humble and remember that  God is not hidden from those who seek him. .  

I hope you can see where I have been so long sewing the seeds of my heart and soul.   It’s not easy to realize that I am not going to be accepted by the way of man. 
But I do love the Lord my Heavenly Father.