“Wisdom calls aloud outside; she raises her voice in the open squares. She cries out in the chief concourses, at the openings of the gates in the city she speaks her words: “How long, you simple ones, will you love simplicity? For scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge. Turn at my rebuke: surely I will pour out my spirit on you; I will make my words known to you. Because I have called and you refused, I have stretched out my hand and no one regarded, because you disdained all my counsel and would have none of my rebuke, I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your terror comes.” https://www.bibletools.org/index.cfm/fuseaction/Topical.show/RTD/CGG/ID/5331/Wisdom-God.htm#:~:text=Wisdom%20calls%20aloud,your%20terror%20comes.
The Forgotten Books of Eden: The Book of the Secrets of Enoch: Chapter LIII
“amongst all men for all time, and none can tell or relate my handwriting, because the Lord sees all the imaginings of man, how they are vain, where they lie in the treasure-houses of the heart. 3 And now, my children, mark well all the words of your father, that I tell you, lest you regret, saying: ‘Why did our father not tell us?'” https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/fbe/fbe160.htm#:~:text=amongst%20all%20men,not%20tell%20us%3F%27
Dear Heavenly Father, Guide my right hand and judge the intentions of my heart.
I write my books of remembrance with fear that I offend God .
These books are not the words that God has given me to declare that I have obtained knowledge of the mind of God.
These books are my testimony to comfort you, but that, they also comfort me. Warn me, and teach me. It is such a wonderful and terrifying mystery.
God bless this seed .
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I was a child when God reached for me.
I believe that those who have been gathered here to hear this book of remembrance are children God touched before you were formed in the womb.
3. God bless this seed I scattered into the wind.
I have spent many years filling books page after page . front and back .
Then, one day , as I held my pen and was waiting for guidance,
My heart was heavy and uninspired.
I began to search the written words of the books already written, and I found myself reading the books that I wrote long ago.
Notes from my preservation of the books of the prophets of old.
A small piece of wisdom written and hidden away from understanding till the day that I was to understand.
What good are my works without faith?
In the beginning was the word. And then it is written.
The living word of the living God is prepared for the living.
But what good are my books of remembrance if you don’t hear my declaration of love and my faith in God to guide me to guide the children taking my place today.
No matter how grown you may be. Remember that you are a child of God.
I hear my Heavenly Father’s voice in my heart, and it touches my very soul.
Throughout my lifetime, I have read pieces of my books to strangers and gave them the pages that I knew were written by my hand long before, to be delivered to this very one who was gathered to me in the wilderness.
I knew from that very moment that God saved me for a reason.
I will never forget the children who were unable to escape and survive the overwhelming consequences of the most ungodly cruelty of mankind upon the most precious and innocent of all mankind.
so I leave behind me the books . With faith in God that if found worthy will be given to those who seek the comfort of the living word of God .
A seed thrown into the wind.
An ongoing request for mercy that can be found online.
Let us not say: ‘Our father is before God, he will stand forward for us on the day of judgement,’ for their father cannot help son, nor yet son father.]
AND now, my children, do not say: ‘Our father is standing before God, and is praying for our sins,’ for there is there no helper of any man who has sinned.
2 You see how I wrote all works of every man, before his creation, all that is done
Students in Foster Care
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So I Pray
Social Welfare History Project Youth Finds Its Own Answers: 1939
From my yesterday..
Arm yourself with knowledge .
You are not forgotten by those who have made their marks on the walls .
I think of you and every single young boy and girl that will wear the same shoes I was given.
The stained tee shirts given to be worn. Then packed away in a box for the next generation to leave behind .
Its not easy to explain to someone who can never understand where you and I have been .
So I leave behind me these links of historical significance.
American people or politicians have no shame or concern for the children that have been denied any kind of humanity.
These are things I know only we can change.
So never forget those taking our places . Never stop fighting for
Isaiah 57:15 (KJV) – Forerunner Commentary
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Look and marvel at this mystery and find it is not mystery at all .
It is written, it was, it is and it will not be unseen tomorrow as it is not unseen today, from my yesterday. To my tomorrow, to your today let the holy spirit guide me through for I only have this moment in my flesh. I seek the life that is the word. And this is written, again and again. Here I am , dear Heavenly Father, here I am.
Jane Doe (1)
Dehumanized to a case number . I WILL NEVER FORGET AND I WILL NEVER STOP REQUESTING MERCY THAT REMAINS DENIED.
With Fear and Trembling
Things I do not understand
Dear Heavenly Father, Guide my right hand and judge the intentions of my heart. Let not my own thoughts mislead your children.
Things that I do not understand are things that no one can truly declare.
Who can stand up and say that they know the mind of God and teach me?
With fear and trembling I preserve my books of remembrance to honor God and God alone.
My fear of offending God with traditions of mankind’s religion comes from the scriptures that are so clearly written, that I, as a child could understand.
Like a list of rules . The first being to Love the Lord my God, and I do. I love God with all my heart and soul.
Next, rule number 2, God is a jealous God, I am not to have any other God before me.
I made a choice
I choose to pray to God and God alone.
So many other people have been taught to pray to Jesus and his name.
Even though in the book of Matthew, it clearly has been written , as the words of Jesus to the child, to keep the laws of God given by Moses. So I do not worship Jesus as God . Did Jesus die so we could live as sinners and be blameless and so easily forgiven?
Or did Jesus suffer so much so I can know God as a sinner and be able to stand in judgment and be accountable for my actions, my obedience to the laws that are known as the 10 commandments. The rules.
So I prayed to God for understanding
I do not mention rules 4 through 10 because they are of moral values , murder, adultery, coveting, etc .
BUT.. the warning of idolatry and worship of a god carved in the image of a man , by men , scares the doubt right out of my heart.
I know the biblical history of the life of Jesus and the scripture is not read by many in context as it is written, but read as pieces and parts . Foolishly and in vain to suit the needs of the teachers.
Am I wise? No I am not. Am I wrong when so many are right? I don’t know.
Do I believe that God will cast me out for choosing to live, as a sinner, I am not sober, but I am kind .
I have stolen, but not when I was given a way , I prayed to God to guide me to a better way. God opened doors and they did not close behind me , but I do not dare to offend God by turning back from his mercy , by the will of God and by God’s will alone , I live, when those behind me fell that chose stay.
These are things I can not make anyone else understand. But those who understand, truly understand.
I tremble in fear of offending God , the living God, God of the living, while I am alive.
Foster care and trafficking
HE REACHED FOR ME
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Following the links
Most precious of all
Following the links
To the faithful ones that God has gathered to see what I have hidden in my heart.
I see the written words like seeds I have thrown into the wind .
As I listen , I listen not to, but within my heart , with fear .
A fear that I will offend God.
As I listen for the Holy Spirit , not to inspire my thoughts in my mind, but to touch my very soul .
I call upon God to guide my right hand in every book of remembrance .
I call upon God to let only truth be written by my hand . I call upon God to judge the intentions of my heart, and if it be worthy, it will be found by you.
My fear of offending God with my own thoughts just because I know you will see it . Knowing you have followed me and not knowing what you are looking at has made me aware of the silence . Fearful of my disobedience to preserve the presence of God and declare that God confirms his hand in a way that only you will understand.
I look back at the words I have written and marvel at the mystery of the messages that were unable to be seen until the day that I saw that I reaped what I had sown
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To my followers and visitors
My name is Connie Ford Johnson. Below is a picture of a page from my original literary collections I call my Books of remembrance .
My poems are written with my limited vocabulary , run on sentences that usually end and begin with the word and .
And “… “instead of commas or question marks.
My childhood Experiences are unique .
but not so uncommon that anyone can be offended by the unGodly cruelty of mankind upon children under the care of church and state that will soon be unable to be ignored.
As more and more victims become adults and surpass the ” statistical “7 year life expectancy to become child sex trafficking survivors as adults no longer profitable or attractive to adults who rape children.
If you are interested in my point of view as a surviving adult of yesterday’s thrown away children I am on Twitter under #requestformercy or Google search clford2121
GOD BLESS THIS SEED
The written word
Those who search for the written word, without the vanity of mankind,
would you say that it is truly hard to find?
Free to be told , never to be sold. I share with you the seed God has hidden in my heart.
I have made many books of remembrance and I awe at the mystery of the gift that belongs not to me, but to those God chooses to receive.
I do not have any answers to declare that I am wise to know the mind of God.
I do not seek to explain the truth of what is plainly written , but few will truly see.
So I share my love of God by scattering the words like seeds.
To my Follower
Thank you for visiting my posts. Hidden within my unorganized and chaotic articles are prayers to God, my Heavenly Father is who I call upon.
To guide my right hand and judge my heart. My fear of offending God is strong . Offending God with my own fear of my enemy.
I call upon God to bless this pen and guide my right hand. This is not about religious traditions of mankind.
This is one of numerous sites that I have given back to God for all that God has given me.
I hope to hear from you about your thoughts on whatever subject matter brought you here.
Thank you for visiting. I am sorting through this to hopefully reorganize and simplify the subjects into categories. Thank you so much for your time and kindness.
Connie Ford Johnson. C.L.Ford
Dear Heavenly Father
I had a question for my Heavenly Father.
For the children who have been so loved and lost, but chosen to be with such great favor to hear that unmistakable voice in their hearts.
To the one who is set apart from the world and seeking for answers,
Well I don’t know the answer you are searching for but I have great knowledge that most people can find exactly what they want to see. Or move on till its found to be acceptable to them.
I am not an exception to this.
It all comes down to a choice
The hard cold truth .
The comfortable middle.
The bliss of total dismissal of the whole subject.
Can my way of belief be totally changed ?
No. I take it to be a personal and private decision to make on my own place in life.
Faith is not free of worry . Doubt that brings guilt for going against the world and even against the ones who have raised you, is not easy. .
It’s okay to be with questions ab religious beliefs and traditions.
But you have been gathered to me and set apart for a reason . I hope I can comfort you and you can draw courage to continue to sow seeds and preserve the words hidden in your own heart.
For those who seek
The Lost Books of the Bible by Rutherford H. Platt, Jr., 1926
The Second Book of Hermas, Called His Commands: Chapter XII. Lost Books
Of a two fold desire: that the commands of God are not impossible: and that the devil is not to be feared by them that believe.
AGAIN he said unto me; [note: Vid. Antioch. Hom. lxxiv.] remove from thee all evil desires, and put on good and holy desires. For having put on a good desire, thou shalt hate that which is evil, and bridle it as thou wilt. But an evil desire is dreadful and hard to be tamed.
2 It is very horrible and wild: and by its wildness consumes men. And especially if a servant of God shall chance to fall into it, except he be very wise, he [note: MS. Lamb. Consumitur, et, Gr. Athanas. δαπαναται.] is ruined by it. For it destroys those who have not the garment of a good desire: and [note: Gr. Athænas. εμπεφυρμενους τῳ ἀίωνι τουτῳ. Instead of implicateos, the Lat. Vers. should be Implicatos.] are engaged in the affairs of
this present world; and delivers them unto death.
3 [note: That the words here inserted, and removed into their proper place in the foregoing Command, do not belong to this Discourse, the Greek of Athanasius, in which they are all omitted, clearly shews.] Sir, said I, what are the works of an evil desire, which bring men unto death? Shew them to me, that I may depart from them. Hear said he, by what works an evil desire bringeth the servants of God unto death.
4 First of all, it is an evil desire to covet another man’s wife; or for a woman to covet another’s husband; as also to desire the dainties of riches: and multitude of superfluous meats; and drunkenness; and many delights.
5 For in much delicacy there is folly; and many pleasures are needless to the servants of God. Such lusting therefore is evil and pernicious, which brings to death the servants of God. For all such lusting is from the devil.
6 Whosoever therefore shall depart from all evil desires, shall live unto God; but they that are subject unto them shall die for ever. For this evil lusting is deadly. Do thou therefore put on the desire of righteousness, and being armed with the fear of the Lord, resist all wicked lusting.
7 For this fear dwelleth in good desires; and when evil coveting shall see thee armed with the fear of the Lord, and resisting it, it will fly far from thee, and not appearing before thee, but be afraid of thy armour.
8 And thou shalt have the victory, and be crowned for it; and shalt attain to that desire which is good; and shalt give the victory which thou hast obtained unto God, and shalt serve him in doing what thou thyself wouldest do.
9 For if thou shalt serve good desires, and be subject to them; thou shalt be able to get the dominion over thy wicked lustings; and they shall be subject to thee as thou wilt.
10 ¶ And I said, Sir, I would know how to serve that desire which is good? Hearken, saith he, Fear God and put thy trust in him, and love truth, and righteousness, and do that which is good.
11 If thou shalt do these things, thou shalt be an approved servant of God; and shalt serve him: and all others who shall in like manner serve a good desire shall live unto God.
12 ¶ And when he had fulfilled these twelve commands, he said unto me, Thou hast now these commands, walk in them; and exhort those that hear them that repent, and that they keep their repentance pure all the remaining days of their life.
13 And fulfil diligently this ministry which I commit to thee, and thou shalt receive great advantage by it; and shalt find favour with all such as shall repent, and shall believe thy words. For I am with thee, and will force them to believe.
14 And I said unto him, Sir, those commands are great and excellent, and able to cheer the heart of that man that shall be able to keep them. But, Sir, I cannot tell, whether they can be observed by any man?
15 He answered, Thou shalt easily keep these commands, and they shall not be hard: howbeit, if thou shalt suffer it once to enter into thy heart that they cannot be kept by any one, thou shalt not fulfil them.
16 But now I say unto thee if thou shalt not observe these commands, but shall neglect them, thou shalt not be saved, nor thy children, nor thy house; because thou hast judged that these cannot be kept by man.
17 ¶ These things he spake very angrily unto me, insomuch that he greatly affrighted me. Fur he changed his countenance, so that a matt could not bear his anger.
18 And when he saw me altogether troubled and confounded, he began to speak more moderately and cheerfully, saying, O foolish, and without understanding!
19 Unconstant, not knowing the majesty of God how great and wonderful he is; who created the world for man, and hath made every creature subject unto him: and given him all power, that he should be able to [note: Ut dominetur.] fulfil all these commands.
20 He is able, said he, to [note: Angel.] fulfil all these commands, who ha the Lord in his heart: but they who have the Lord only in their mouths, and their heart is hardened, and they are far from the Lord; to such persons these commands are hard and difficult.
21 Put therefore, ye that are empty and light in the faith, the Lord your God in your hearts and ye shall perceive how that nothing is more easy than these commands, nor more pleasant, nor more gentle and holy.
22 And turn yourselves to the Lord your God, and forsake the devil and his pleasures, because they are evil, and bitter, and impure. And fear not the devil, because he has no power over you.
23 For I am with you, the messenger of repentance, who have the dominion over him. The devil doth indeed affright men; but his terror is vain. Wherefore fear him not, and he will flee from you.
24 And I said unto him; Sir, hear me speak a few words unto you. He answered, Say on: A man indeed desires to keep the commandments of God: and there is no one but what prays unto God, that he may be able to keep his commandments.
25 But the devil is hard, and by his power rules over the servants of God. And he said He cannot rule over the servants of God, [note: Gr. ελπιζοντων εις Ἀυτον.] who trust in him with all their hearts.
26 The devil may strive, but he cannot overcome them.
27 For if ye resist him, he will floe away with confusion from you. But they that are not full in the faith, fear the devil, as if he had some great power. For the devil tries the i servants of God and if he finds them empty, he destroys them.
28 For as man, when he fills up vessels with good wine, [note: Origen. in Matt. xxiv. 42.] and among them puts a few vessels half full, and comes to try and taste of the vessels, doth not try those that are full, because ho knows that they are good; but tastes those that are half full, lest they should grow sour; (for vessels half full soon grow sour, and lose the taste of wine:) so the devil comes to the servants of God to try them.
29 They that are full of faith resist him stoutly, and he departs from them, because he finds no place where to enter into them: then he goes to those that are not full of faith, and because he has place of entrance,
he goes into them, and does what he will with them, and they become his servants.
30 ¶ But I, [note: Angel.] the messenger of repentance, say unto you, fear not the devil, for I am sent unto you, that I may he with you, as many as shall repent with your whole heart, and that I may confirm you in the faith.
31 [note: Vid. Antioch. Hom. lxxvii.] Believe therefore, ye who by reason of your transgressions have [note: MS. Lamb. Qui obliti estis Deum, et salutem vestram.] forgot God, and your own salvation; and [note: What follows should be corrected thus; Et qui adjicientes peccatis vestris, gravatis vitam vestram.] adding to your sins have made your life very heavy.
32 That if ye shall turn to the Lord with your whole hearts, and shall serve him according to his will; he will heal you of your former sins, and ye shall have dominion over all the works of the devil.
33 Be not then afraid in the least of his threatenings, for they are without force, as the nerves of a dead man. But hearken unto me, and fear the Lord Almighty, who is able to save and to destroy you; and keep his commands, that ye may live unto God.
34 And I said unto him; Sir, I am now confirmed in all the commands of the Lord whilst that you are with me, and I know that you will break all the power of the devil.
35 And we also shall overcome him, if we shall be able, through the help of the Lord, to keep these commands which you have delivered.
36 Thou shalt keep them, said he, if thou shalt purify thy heart towards the Lord. And all they also shall keep them who shall cleanse their hearts from the vain desires of the present world, and shall live unto God.
The Lost Books – http://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=losts.books.bible.AOVVOECGBSPCKJOZJR
2013 Spring Revival – Evangelist Ronald Reagan’s Testimony – YouTube
Social Welfare History Project Children’s Aid Society of New York
Psalms 2:10 (KJV) – Forerunner Commentary
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This is my comfort zone . I search for guidance and understanding.
Today I am and your yesterday . And today I am witness to your tomorrow .
Living within the living word of the living God , God of the living.
my Heavenly Father's love 